At the height of it I wish you could have seen what wasn’t ever less than the bright flashing that we couldn’t close our eyes from when we were kids and thought to ourselves that someday we would get there to what the adults do in their private hours and against the rules that are seemingly only to protect us young ones that can’t protect ourselves until we grow up and it’s all there laid out and some take too much all at once and don’t make it but others can balance and come back again and again.