I want to want
What I have wanted before

I know the wanting
Precedes the satisfaction

But I still try to force it

The sandwich and chips
I ate for lunch yesterday
Were delicious

Today, it is lunchtime
And I want to want
The sandwich and chips
So that I can satisfy
The same hunger

But I want something different
I don’t know what

I want to want
What I’ve wanted before
Because it’s easier

I learned to love
When I moved to San Francisco
I stayed up all night with strangers

I want to want that again
But I am comfortable

To hunger for a sandwich
Like when I returned home
From a hike yesterday

To lust for sex
As when I was young
And didn’t know what it was

July 16, 2021 at 03:22PM