Sight meditations

My deepest meditations continue to be based on “sight.” I am not sure whether it is my physical eyes seeing the backs of my closed eyelids, or if it is my mental mind projecting blackness. Either way, I see mostly black darkness that displays sometimes abstract shifts in its color and other times real-world shapes and figures that I recognize, like people’s faces, street signs, etc. I go deeper by continuing to focus on what I “see” and avoiding thinking about anything else. I find my drishti in various points of the mildly dynamic darkness. At some point I felt a delightful sensation in my legs and feet like a tingling. Once I got to a certain level, I felt that I was oscillating back and forth. I made a push to go deeper but was shut out, set back, and made to try again. I did this until I fell asleep, not from lethargy or relaxation, but from exhaustion.