as i try to lay

flat and orthodox

looking up

at the ceiling

breathing

through my nose

i lay abstract

and off-center

spine twisted

like a wet rag

ringing out water

with one shin

straight

the other bent

and crossed over

shin bones

crossed over

hand over

half of heart

sloping down

rib cage

pelvis slanting

to the side

forearm slipping

underneath skull

other hand

between thighs

can only sleep

on my side

as hard as i try

to lay flat