I think of her possessively. It’s a bad habit. I think of how to keep her and make her mine. I think of our relationship like something static, like filling up a cup with water and I try to quantify our moments together in terms of how much more of the cup is filled. I need to let these ideas go. They are ego-driven and selfish. My main focus should be making her happy and constantly outpouring love and admiration for her.