Lately I just pay attention

I question myself less. I am flying home tonight to see my family. It’s been six months since I’ve seen them last Christmas. I am happy and excited and hopeful. I know it is base and emotional. Normally I try to rationalize or remain stoic and avoid future expectations. Lately I just pay attention. I appreciate the feeling for whatever it is, with child-like curiosity and gratitude. If it is what we call “good” or “bad,” either way I pay attention and express gratitude.