Jealous of my gender

When looking at a handsome man, I used to feel jealous. I would wish that I could look like him in order to make women feel about me the way that I felt about him. Why must the emotion pass through the subjectivity of my own sexuality? Why jealousy instead of attraction?
– inspired by Justin Bieber in the music video for STAY (with the Kid LAROI) when Bieber looks into the camera (neck tattoos, earring, short haircut)