I will continue to have desires until I die.

And my consciousness is in a bodily form so that I can satisfy my desires.

When I am dying, what if my desire is to stay alive?

I think I will be able to satisfy that desire. I will be able to keep myself alive until it is my desire to die.

I am part of all this. I am not separate.

Parts of the universe are satisfying their desires, down to the subatomic particles. The universe will go on desiring and satisfying, even as I pass away.

Perhaps what I identify as my own consciousness is really just the universal consciousness as it has occurred in my unique corporal form. The universe has no desire for consciousness to persist in my corporal form, just as it is. I am part of it all. It all comes to pass.

For some time, I will continue to have strong desires. As long as I am having the desires, I can pursue them. I wonder if I will gradually have less and less desires until it gets to the point that what I desire is just to be and I will continue to be aware of my present human experience, but I will have little desire to do anything other than sit and be aware of my experience.

But I am still young and full of desire.