Banal

Sometimes it’s not the words that matter; it’s how you say them.

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that your opinion is the popular one is not an absolute defense.

Obey

Doing what you’re told can be useful practice for when you start telling yourself.

Q&A

The question, asked more and more accurately, becomes the answer.

We will die

We’re going to die and everything else will move on and it won’t matter. So let’s take advantage of it while we got it.

Morning

It’s on these mornings that I can’t get back to sleep, and must wake up to live.

Forward

My anxiety about failure and fear of death keeps me awake and drives me forward.

Satisfied

I haven’t written much lately because I’ve been so sedated and satisfied with the city. Funny, that even satisfaction becomes dissatisfying. I can’t write without a reason to put my pen to the paper. And when my hands and eyes and heart and mind are so preoccupied with what brings me joy, I think to myself I could live on like this and die and never write again. But then I wake up on Sunday morning with blank pages and not even memories of the last couple days. I am dissatisfied and so completes the circle; I pick up my pen and begin to write again.

She

She has the strength to weaken me, and the weakness to strengthen.

Game

Life is a game. Stop asking so many questions about the rules; just play and get better for the love of the sport.

Documenting

I’m still at a point, both as a writer and in life, where I’m just documenting; I haven’t seen enough to make any claims yet.

Sick

I like to be sick and lay in bed all day and escape the world and obligations of a healthy person.

Read

I read a little less; in the city, I’m constantly reading into all the experiences around me.

Live

I am constantly trying to live so that my life is a worthy subject of my writing.

Sleep

Lately it’s gotten hard to sleep; there are things I’d rather do than sleep anyway.

Piece

A piece that discovers the meaning of meaning, held together by itself and nothing else.

Wonder

I wonder what it will be calm when it dies but then they get once that it won’t and once I think it won’t I wonder if it ever did and how we’re going to make it with things the way they are.

Be

Don’t create all these ideas about who you are and what you do just keep doing and become.

Explode

My mental ego inflated until I couldn’t take it anymore and exploded out of my physical self.

Generations

There are some things we can only learn for ourselves; mental things that can’t be written down, recorded, even passed from parent to child; things that we lose between generations.

Solitude

Only in solitude can one encounter the clarity of oneself, and it is this richness which one has to offer the community.

Bad writing

I must take my hyper-self-awareness, and turn it on others; if I’m ever to write, anything other, than loves stories, to myself.

Ourselves

Diverse striver, lone wolf, critical counterculturist, new traditionalist, engaged idealist—these we call ourselves.

Moments

I chase every minute after these moments that I only get once or twice a month; they always make it worth it.

Potential

I see so much potential everywhere, like everything could just burst out of itself and explode all at once; you wouldn’t be able to tell a lady bug from a pinto bean.

Pupils

After a purifying experience the darks of my pupils are black and clear and reflective.

Believe

If there are two stories and I can’t prove either one I might as well believe the better story.

Go-between

I live this weird go-between life in the middle of sane and insane, artistic and scientific, alive and dead, in between all these things.

Walk

Sometimes I just walk; it’s easier to pick a direction than a word.

Eyelid notes

I write things down on little pieces of paper behind my eyelids and then fold them back to store in my brain but I can never find them again most of the time.

Dreams

Dreams are this weirdly objective part of our minds, where we just be without fear of judgment, I think a lot of art happens in our dreams, this is a daydream journal.

Higher

I feel just caught in the cycle of life, unless I’m creating or loving—these two things are higher.

Twisted

I try not to think about my instincts too much, otherwise I tend to pervert my conditioned frameworks.

Rich diagonals

People live in their verticals, without learning to move side to side, and thus closed off from the richness of the diagonals.

Part of One

Building frameworks to understand my Divine self, to understand the part of One of my self, to understand everything.

You try to see your one self but there are many, you are a composite, and at the same time there is a larger One composite, of which you are one part.

Age

How arbitrary the number of days for which we are chosen before lying down forever and rejoining the rest.

Up

Up through my body, through my mind, and pushed my soul higher and higher.

Ordinary

I love that when you meet someone new and you really meet them and they become the most interesting person in the world for a few minutes.

Them and now

I am tempted to be myself and to think of past and future. But I am them, they are I, and everything is present at once.

Idk

You have to have a feeling that your extraordinary melody is out.

Weapons within me

If I compound fractured my leg and then cut my finger on the pointy bone sticking out—wouldn’t that be ironic?

Of it

It is of it that we are, though we needn’t be, for it always was, even before us, anyhow.

Classic bigger

I’m always after bigger, and not just the bigger according to our modern fashions, but a classic bigger.

Rain

I hope it really starts to blow when I am watching, just laying there to pay attention to the rain.

Loud and bright

Everything is quite loud and bright to me now, even though everyone else seems to think it is just as usual.

Infinite

Infinite in the sense that it has happened, and therefore always will have, and may even have always been certain to.

Digression

A conscious digression from the structure then contributes its creativity back to amend the structure.

How

How little you know about how much you and anybody else knows anyhow.

Art and world

The art has to be packaged within the world, the chaos within the order, you must follow the rules to break them.

Two bikes

I see two young men ride by on their bikes—they are the same, or at least appear so: combed over hair, sunglasses, and sweaters.

All

I find all of history in one moment; all of knowledge in one idea; all of space in one atom.

To write

To write, I go to the symphony, watch a beggar beg, close my eyes and listen to my breath, watching myself.

Cut

In the cut, on the fringe, where all creation is born, but where I myself die.

Day

Life is a long day, and death is a longer night. Like I am happy to sleep when I have been awake too long, might I in old age be happy to die?