Her heart

If the pulse

In my hand

On her chest

Is her heart

Or my blood

Become one;

I cannot tell

Who is who

Like roots

That run deep

Into soil

Sending life

Back and forth

Go on then

Do you see

These same things

That I see

Anymore

Simple as sure

No more words

Than three

To a line

Are needed

To describe

Something

So simple as sure

That I wonder

If you see

Anymore

Walking swiftly

You must have

Somewhere to be

Whither where

You might ask me

Don’t you see

Where I’m going

Pointing somewhere

Far away

I nod my head

And bow

To pick at the grass blades

Beneath my bare feet

Basketball

I saw a man

Bring a ball

Inside a backpack

To the court

Fenced all around

By chain link

In the park

On a Thursday

Just before sunset;

I watched him

Bend his knees

And shoot

Too real

Sometimes I see the world too real. I see that things are actually material and animated, driven by life forces. In a special moment, when not taken for granted, this seems to me truly incredible.

It becomes hard to keep on a conversation with someone as I start to marvel just at the fact that they are speaking and living and breathing in front of me, and I am such that I can, not only witness their life unfolding in front of me, but also interact, affecting their life with my own.

It becomes difficult not to suddenly exclaim as I realize this. I am sure I must have a glazed-over look in my eyes.

Stagnant

Sedentary

Starting to stagnate

Sitting inside all day

With the drapes drown

Sulking

So as to further feed

My worries

When an open window

Would do me so good

Ants

I sat on the step

And watched ants

For the better part

Of an afternoon

 

So many ants

On the sidewalk

Made it seem

Like the cement

Was moving

 

Made me realize

My troubles

Were not so bad

 

With my elbows

On my knees

And hands folded

Scowling

Despite the sun

Write what escapes

What I see once

On my walk home

And exclaim at

As a thing

Which ought be written

Though I can’t

In that moment

Muster the words

So I write nothing

And walk by

For days on end

Until finally

The sight strikes

With the right odds

When I can write

What has escaped me

All the days before

Rush hour

There’s this deep

City river gorge

Filled with yellow

Headlight fish

All swimming upstream

I can see here

On the hilltop

Standing sidewalk

With my hands in my pockets

On a night stroll

Watching the river of light

Pinch off into the distance

Wondering about

All the commuters

Just trying to get home

five faces

For all the five faces

Fighting for four

Fear holds most sway

Rapping at the door

Sadness slumps down

From his forlorn armchair

As haste steps forward

To swing wide open

Heedless and headstrong

Anger would surely

Slam the door shut

Though love lets all in

Welcome with open arms

And an enemy even

Cannot remain heathen

Happy in a hearthy home

Blessed

Often

I do feel fond

Of fancies

As I’ve had

 

Though

In moments

Of boredom

 

I’d sacrifice

Them all

For a chance

At change

Gratitude

Consider the many multitude

Of things which

You would rather not

Have happen

And at least for this

At any time

You might be thankful

Travel on

O’er in my memory

My mind has run

The now worn path

Of fine times past, indeed

 

So of this place

Where I’ve long stayed

As with all things

Which do arrive

Doth finally come

This time now

To take my somber leave

 

A thousand ways

In my old age

I’ve lived my younger days

 

If you could only

Promise me

One last thing

Before I go

 

To have as much

In memory, your own

When time for you

Doth come as well

To travel on

Lying on the floor

Lying

On the floor

Looking

At the ceiling

Seems to be

More simple

Than the life

I left outside

Needing

This nothingness

To wash away

My mind

Writing my dreams

A daytime nap

Marries the motion

And light

Of the waking world

With the wonder

And formlessness

Of dream

Wherein the middle

Poetry lives

Dancing

Back and forth

In wheelbarrows

Full of dream

Dug up in sleep

And delivered

To be re-planted

Here in my bed

Brain tree

Putting down roots

Staring at the ceiling

I like to lie

And look a while

At the ordinary

And its layers

Of interesting

Offered only

To eyes

Like rivers

Wearing away

With time

To watch patiently

The stony surface

Which eyes

With less time

Only ever see

On the outside

Unaware

Of the river bed

To be found

Cut beneath

Ceiling scar

The same section

Of ceiling

Has this shimmer

In the noon time

Which reveals

Its blemish

Of poor plastering

But maybe

On purpose

As an artist

Plastered it this way

Like a scar

That is beautiful

As it appears

To me now

Staring at the wall

Staring

Long enough

I start to see

The space

In between

Focusing

On each speck

Of dust

In the air

A gradient

Obscures

My vision

Of the original

Object

Of intent

Farther off

Desire

Sweet time

Slow enough

Such

Anticipation

Is part

Of the excitement

Building

Like all desire

Blinds us

To the past

And future

While we’re waiting

Impatiently

For something

Immediate

Like hunger

On the hunt

Or lust

On the way home

To bed

With another

And in many

Other

Much smaller

Ways

It’s that immediate

Promise

Of satisfaction

Moving us

Most the time

Grinding my teeth

Clenching my jaw

Unaware until

My bottom teeth

Meet the top row

Mashing

Like corn in a mortar

To dust, powder

Eventually

But not so soon

More slowly wearing

Waking me

In the night

With yet another

Symptom

Of my anxiety

Waiting for the bus

I check the time

At which the bus

Is supposed to arrive

And realize

That I have ten minutes

Left to kill

So I start to go about

Distracting myself

Stretching

Looking up

At the building tops

And people watching

Strangers

Until I run out

Of distractions

And venture a glance

At my watch

To find

I’ve only passed

Three of the ten

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I take the backpack

Off of my shoulders

And feel relief

Immediately;

 

So much

That I think

Of leaving it there

On the sidewalk

Laptop and all

 

And continuing

On my walk home

Without it

Highs and lows

Just as I am

For certain

That it is all done

And gone forever

For sure this time

It all comes

Rushing back

Reviving me

Once more

To go on high

And then soon after

Subtly low

When I will again

Be for certain

Even more certain

Than the last low

That the revival

Will not come this time

Until it surely does

And I go back to soaring

Though I know

And of this, I am sure

There is one low

In which

I will lie for good

And not soar again

Walk some more

I come home

From a night walk

To let my dinner settle

And close the door

And put my keys in the basket

And start to take off my shoes

As I realize

I am not yet satisfied

And slip my shoes back on

And grab my keys

And open the door

To go back out

And walk some more

Couple walking

A smiling

Mustached man

Holding hands

With a beautiful girl

He’s telling a joke

One hand in his pocket

She’s laughing

Trying to keep up

As they walk

Nightime stroll

I go for a walk

At night

Slowly

Strolling

And see

So many things

That I miss

On my walk

To work

Rushing

In the morning

Old man

Looking through

A restaurant window

I saw an old man

Using a magnifying glass

To look at a menu

Simple

That simple man song

Keeps ringing in my ears

From Skynyrd and Thoreau

Louder than city buses

And conversations

In the apartment next door

I hear the simple silence

Louder than the city noise

Whispering to me

Up reading alone at night

Or deep into a hike

What if not to be

Is Shakespeare’s answer

And all of this

Has become too much

Counting seconds

Seeing as a second

Wasn’t long enough

Stretching now

For two or three

So time feels spent

Sufficiently

 

Whereas waiting

Wouldn’t do it

Doing had to be

Seeing newness

Touching other

Change it had to be

 

To feel alive

Past idle nigh

Now counting

One, two, three

Next stretch

As soon as a stretch

In that direction

Left me off center

I wasn’t either

Anymore

And after a while

In between

It started to seem

A new center

Comfortable

For the time being

At least until

The inevitable

Next stretch

Soon to come

Gratitude

Today, when I got home after work, I laid on the floor with my eyes closed for a long time. When I opened my eyes, the first thing I noticed was the ceiling light in the middle of the ceiling. The second thing I saw were my hands. I turned them over in the dim light of the one lamp I had turned on in the room. I exclaimed silently to myself about how amazing it was that my mind had complete control over these physical objects. And then I realized how happy I was just to be alive in that moment.

Shoulder kiss

In the dark

In the night

With my eyes closed

Redundantly

I reach out

Quietly, slowly

With my lower lip

To touch her shoulder

Having to lean

My neck forward

Until I find

Her soft skin

Hands

It seems to me that hands work harder

Than other parts of the body,

Though maybe only more, in variety

As the heart surely works always,

Albeit the same beat is all

Whereas the hand writes and works

And picks up and puts down and rubs

And sews and draws and kneads

And most other verbs

Whatever waxes

I reckless write

What comes at night

Waking lately

Makes me wobble

Whatever waxes

Wanes tomorrow

When I one time

See for three

So I learned to

Sleep with ease

Into a groove

The same things I’ve seen

For some time now

So my thoughts

Are mostly deja vu

Like the same lights

At the same times

And the same habits

Wear this groove deep

Where I’m happy enough to be

So subtly

This groove creeps deeper

Being worn

By my own passing

Back and forth

Over and over

For I enjoy it now

Almost completely

Except for the small fear

That the deep wear

Caused by my repeated enjoyment

Will make it difficult

To climb back out

And wear again

Elsewhere

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You can’t think of nothing

Looking ‘round all the time

Restless and ready

To chase any rabbit

Down its respective hole

Stop and stay for a second

In the patch of grass

Where you are standing

Close your eyes and look up

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I get here, I “arrive”

Is the only way

I can describe it

Once I’ve had the right amount of coffee

And lasted through the brief period

At the onset

When I worry

I might have had too much

Giving my mind time to adjust

To a state it’s not used to

Like climbing a mountain

Huffing and puffing

Until you get to the top

And take deep breaths

As you see what you’ve climbed for

So it is sitting here

With my headphones in

And all that is happening

In the coffee shop around me

Is no different

Than a Wednesday

When I am rushing through

But today

On a Saturday

With some time to sit and think

It is all art

And curious to me

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The orange awning

Outside the window

Blows in the wind

As I realize

Writing this

That “wind”

And “window”

Are similar words

Running in the city

You can’t go so loosely

Running amuck

As you would in the plains

In any direction

No matter

Flat and far enough

To run with your eyes closed

If you wanted to;

In the city

You must be careful

To obey the signs

And posted placards

Going your own way

Won’t take you far

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letting words run as they will

like waking up a mass of clay

as haphazardly as thrown

on a potter’s wheel

just to have a starting point

and at least get something

out into the open

where it can at least be seen

and then shaped and refined

so better to have it out haphazard

just to get a start

rather than nothing at all

and refining thin air

and making the mind sick

by refining itself

for lack of anything else